2/25/2023
Video performance idea and rough planning
This video although it is last minute it is a performance piece that I want to do that serves as a cautionary tale about art and myself as a person. I have had many regrets in my life that I want younger artist to avoid as much as possible. The inspiration came from a couple of Quentin Tarantino films such as pulp fiction, reservoir dogs in which the dialogue is natural and goes off in its own tangent. Completely random as if you were listening to a drug addict on the streets rant in public. But I have my regrets I’m trying to overcome and resolve, I’m not proud of the work I made, and I want to let other artist avoid that rabbit hole and not get sucked into it that could potentially ruin their own art careers.
In the meantime, I’m going to avoid adding in anymore information as to not make a script and my thoughts flow exactly even if its mad ranting in the end.
Final version update
After being able to record my rant there was some errors in my line of speech in which I couldn’t pronounce simple words, and the final version of the video was to large to fit on a free wix account since my video is 18 minutes and wix only allows 10 minutes at best, and I don’t want to sacrifice the video as it was meant to be taken as a raw personal take. This video will be for this class as it is still very personal to myself as I have made some huge mistakes in my artistic career. In my selfish need for approval and hoping for quick fame and money I lost my sense of morality and made some work I am not proud of. Yes its on the internet and it can no longer be deleted and if I could I would love to get rid of it. But I can’t and that’s the sad truth, yes I have stopped and have been going clean for 3-4 years and in that time I’m still hoping to be the best version of myself and make work my family and friends can be proud of and not see the shame of lust and greed and a twisted malform creation that I pray stay’s hidden for as long as I live. I don’t shame anyone for continuing nsfw artwork and although I hate to admit, the nsfw artist helped me improve my skills and talents and even helped me understand the materials I was using. They aren’t terrible people, but for me I don’t want to live in shame.
This was for my art intervention project, and the message was about the little things we see in our daily lives. Especially when we have an opportunity to make a change in someone's life but we chose to not get involved due to the complications it brings to us. Those complications are depicted as complicated pathways as seen in the chalk work. all this was made in an hour which is the time we have to make changes in someone's life.
so why the chalk art?
chalk was easier to obtain and didn't have the potential to leave a permanent mark in a public space nor could it be a substance that could danger local wild life as my first thought was to glitter bomb one specific area, or gift wrap a statue. another idea was to tresspass an active work site on the campus that was once a public soccer field and leave a skeleton and a soccer ball as a public message. sadly the dig site was active and was near impossible to get through.
as for the final art that took place I thought it was in a proper location as it is well hidden but is located in a open area on the campus. all it takes is a bit of courage to go through and see it. luckily the two people who saw me making this art piece didn't tell me to stop and where cautious of the art in progress. but it was only those two people who may only see the original piece.
Thomas schutte is a unique artist who has foun his succes late in life many artist find them at a younger age and although he did find his sucess later in life he made his fame in 2000 and became more recognizable. his work is purposely manipulated to be very off puting cruel and sinister in their nature while being slighltly humerous like scarecrows. he studies under gerhard richter who has artwork in chicago and SF Moma. as artist we strive to become successful at a young age but with Thomas schutte he helps us accept that we find our wild success at a much later time in life.
